I feel so good since my exam. It’s literally as if a massive weight has been taken from my shoulders. It went so well and I have never felt so proud of myself. With everything that I have put on myself in the past month & I still made myself put the work in as well as quitting smoking & drinking & cut down on junk food & joining the gym. Plus illness & nightmares. I felt it all come out in the exam, all the work I’d put in paying off. I’m so happy.

I spent the evening in the gym with Becky, everything is turning around for me, I want 2010 to be a good year. 2009 was filled with loss, bereavement and heart break. As cliché as it is, this is my year, I want my confidence back.

I want to sort things out with my girls, I know over January I haven’t been the best friend, but I love you all so much and you all do so much for me, please don’t ever think I’d turn my back on you and I mean that for my mum as well. And Louis has been so supportive and understanding - coming to look after me whilst I was ill, putting up with my temper when I was depressed and being there for me whilst I revised, I love you, you are amazing.

These next 6 days revision is all it takes then I can work things out properly.

I can do this!